I cannot even believe that you are now 4 years old!! You have given me the most amazing 4 years of my life. You have changed so much just in this last year alone. Your speech has blossomed, your personality is so unique and you features are slowly losing the "baby look" and turning into a sweet, handsome little lad.
This year we celebrated with just friends and immediate family. We went to Highjinks and you had an amazing time. You were so happy! The theme was of course "Transformers" as you are currently obsessed with them right now, even though you won't watch the movies or shows haha.
Over the last four years you have taught me so much, but the most important thing you have taught me is:
What true love is. They say true love is a romantic kind of love, the kind of love that you feel when you meet the person who is "the one". I have to disagree. True love for me is meeting the baby you have carried around in you for the past nine months, the little person you were so protective over and loved endlessly without even knowing them. True love to me is saying and meaning "I would die for you". We say this often as a figure of speech but when you have a s child you mean it. You would do anything for that person, no matter what the cost. True love for me is being able to feel so much frustration and love at the same time. This again is something that is truly only felt once you have a child. Thank you for showing me what true love really is and I can only hope you can experience your own form of true love once you are older.
Each day I look at you now and I think this is one less day I will have to snuggle him, one less day he will want to sit with me, one less day he will give me endless kisses and hugs and I celebrate and mourn each day we spend together as that day will be our last like that. When you first have a baby you lose yourself in time, at least thats how it was for me. I lost the idea that you would grow, that you wouldn't be a tiny babe forever. And as quickly as they said it would happen you sprung into a toddler and than a preschooler and now a big, crazy 4 year old. I wish I could go back and document everything, take millions of videos, bottle up your kisses and experiences and re live them over and over. But there is no turning back, that is why we need to live each day as if it is our last, as each day is unique and will never experience another day like it.
I will always remember your 4th birthday. Your excitement over getting ready, over seeing the cake and your friends. Thank you for another great day of memories. I love you so much. Thank You for another amazing year!
xo Mommy
